Dear Serena,

Screaming all the way to Heaven

Hey Girl,

Today was an interesting day we had our youngest daughter’s sixth birthday party. This was interesting to me because one of the last memories I have of us together was around Seth’s turning Six years old. I remember how small both of your kids where. Every now and agian I get to talk to Seth through facebook messenger. He has had a rough start to his adulthood but he has also had some opportunities that maybe would have never had before. He is a High School graduate. I have seen his diploma as well as pictures. However he did get into the drug game, causing him to get into trouble, which resulted in him getting shot in the neck and cheating death but only slightly. Man Serena how I wish I could have watched your kids grow up, how I wish you could have been part of them growing up. When I found Seth on Facebook I was afraid he would not remember me. When he facetimed me the first thing out of his mouth was “I remember your face”, the most amazing words I have ever heard.

Baby girl however did not remember me and I never expected her to. She was so young. The reason for this blog subject is that this morning I saw a bittersweet picture on Yunique’s facebook page. Now I have gotten to see your daughter’s life in vicarious photos of her that have been Posted. But I have seen her graduation pictures as well as a video of her actually walking across the stage which I actually teared up at. Both of your younger children, of course, I have no actual contact with DJ, are named after your madien name and your brother John. So they are both Holden, well….. Yunique is now married so she is Yunique Dunivan.

Which brings me to the reason for this post. Serena you are going to be a grandma. It makes me fell old, it makes me realize that had we still been a family like we were, we would have been surrogate grandparents. Great uncle and aunt at the least. Serena she posted three Pregnancy test so this just got real. I know that this news would have brought you such Joy. I want you to know that I still think about you. I am trying to keep your memory alive in your children and the world. I am sometimes sad that you will not be able to see this.

Monica Ray

P.S. You know that the Ghetto Towel is actually a thing now, we should have pattened that shit when we came up with it. Lol

Yunique and Seth, Yunique’s graduation